Everyone says that their early stuff was crap and that they get better with practice. It’s a thing to say…”well, when I started out I was pretty terrible…”. I don’t always agree. Just because I’ve changed my mind on things doesn’t mean it was subpar at the beginning.
Regardless, it’s a good idea to consider: what are you doing well now that will get better in the future with good systems of practice and revision?
Get ahold of some strengths and see if you can become truly great!